I recently read that most women hate birthdays. You'd think that this is because no one likes to wake up knowing they're a year older. But the truth is that most women don't like celebrating their birthday because it reminds them of everything they had hoped to accomplish by this time and haven't. Ouch... You see, for most of my life, I have LOVED birthdays. Not because I enjoy attention, parties, or receiving gifts. But because, to me, it always felt like a new year, a new chance to become a better me. People do New Year's Resolutions; I did Birthday Resolutions. This year was different though. The thought of turning 27 made me realize that my life isn't necessarily where I thought it'd be. By 27, I had planned to be married and have a child. Yay! That's accomplished! But I also anticipated being a Certified Physician Assistant working in a local Emergency Room by now also... yeahhhh, there's the stinger. The more I thought about this, the worse I felt. Because if you're anything like me, you start here and your mind takes you on a ridiculous spiral. So by the time I finished sulking in my imaginary misery, I was basically up in arms thinking I will never become a PA because who's going to go to PA School in their 30s?! The answer is actually quote a lot of people do...
With the help of my loved ones, primarily my dear husband who deals with high-strung personality, I started to realize that the reason I haven't accomplished this is because life also took a path that I never expected. I never imagined myself leaving the NYC metro area to be with my lover, who I never imagined would be in the military too. I also never imagined the minute I held Noah in my arms that my entire perspective on being a full-time working mom, who's child is in daycare, would drastically change to a heck no, we won't go. So to think that I'd be a PA-C by now with all those curveballs is quite laughable, in hindsight. Instead, my mindset started to shift from that one thing I had not accomplished to everything that I had accomplished. I met my soul-monster (the soulmate who I want to strangle most of the time <3), became a Certified Nurse Assistant/EKG Technician, moved across the country, got a job at a reputable hospital, got pregnant, got married, bought a house, met my precious little bubs, endured a 6 month deployment with a newborn, started home remodeling, and planned a wedding. Man, that was a mouthful! We had accomplished SO MUCH!
So my dear soul-monster decided to celebrate my birthday and all our accomplishments, by taking me on a Hornblower Dinner Cruise. When he told me this, all I heard was that I got to wear a cute dress, get dolled up, and enjoy a date night just us. I'm sure all you stay at home momma's can hear the angels singing at the thought of that too! We got all snazzy, embarked on our cruise, ate delicious food, had yummy cocktails, danced, and w̶e̶n̶t̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶o̶n̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ t̶o̶w̶n̶ (JUST KIDDING!) went home to watch a movie, because we're old. Ha!
IT. WAS. WONDERFUL.
I may not be exactly where I thought I would be at 27, but I am exactly where God wants me to be. At the end of the day, His plan is way more amazing than anything I could fathom. One day, He will reveal His plan and I'll surely be blown away at how I could never imagine that it would all work out how it did.